Ok, I just need to rant for a few. Why is it that it is so difficult to find exercise clothing in fat sizes?? I mean, come on!!! Who needs the exercise the most, but people who need larger sizes? I have played softball forever, and I have my first game of the season tonight. While driving home from work last night I decided to stop at a store to buy some warm up pants or crops because it is still a little chilly for shorts. (I have a lot of shorts that I bought last summer, but mind you, but they are MEN's because I couldn't find any in women's sizes that were long enough) But I digress... The largest size I could find anywhere was an XL. Now, I know larger sizes can be found, but usually at a store like Lane Bryant, and they want $20 - $40 for them, and HELLO, if I am exercising I am going to be losing weight, so they won't fit me for very long, and who wants to spend that kind of money for that?!?! Anyways, I ended up not buying anything and digging through my closet and drawers and found an old pair that fits me again that will suffice for now. I am really not that upset, because it will be warm enough for shorts soon anyways. It just all seemed a little ironic to me. I mean, I don't know about you all, but when it comes to me and exercise, any excuse that comes up to NOT exercise can easily side-line my best intentions, and not having something comfortable and half way cute to wear while doing so fits that bill. Oh well... At least I am 80 lbs lighter and the pants I wore last year are huge and baggy instead of tight and squishy! Maybe I could try suspenders, and just pray that they don't fall down while rounding second base. Thanks for letting me rant. Have a great day everyone! :)

I just have to brag a bit. I am currently on my second week of getting up in the morning to exercise! Day six!!! Actually, if you count softball practice and working in my flower beds on Saturday, it is SEVEN days. Well done me! ; ) I am really, really enjoying it. I bought the Turbo Jam DVDs and it is reallt fun. Kind of like Tae Bo, but a little more dancy. I think I am finally over feeling uncoordinated, and in my head, I almost look like the gals on the TV. I record the TV show Starting Over every morning, and usually by the weekend I have taken the time to watch all of the episodes. A couple of the women on the show have weight issues, and one of them who is in the house and is trying to lose weight as one of her goals, kept refusing to get on the scale, and went on and on about how it is "just a number". She ended up getting into it with her life coach, and the life coach basically told her that she wasn't committed, and that her life was never going to change until she could keep commitments WITH HERSELF. For some reason, that really struck me. I can make all of the excuses that I want about why I am where I am physically, but the bottom line is, I don't keep my commitments to myself. Commitments about exercise, eating, sleeping, cleaning, pretty much everything! Don't get me wrong, I am thrilled with where I am, and I love who I am, BUT I want to be better, I want to be healthy, I don't want the word obese ANYWHERE in ANY physical description of me! At least I am not considered morbidly obese anymore, just obese. :) Who would have ever thought that would bring a smile to my face? Next week I have a "yearly" exam (it has been 3 years since I have been in) with Dr. Bitner. He is the doctor that recommended me for my LapBand surgery. I think that has also been a catalyst in getting my butt in gear, because I know I will have to weigh when I go, and I want it to look as good as possible! : )