Okay, it has been a couple of weeks since I last posted. Here are a couple of things that I want to ramble on about... When will I ever be able to just get up when my alarm goes off in the morning? I guess when I decide to do just that. There are few things in this world that I enjoy more than hitting snooze and curling back up under the blankets and go back to sleep. There isn't anything quite as refreshing as those 5 or 6 nine minute sessions of extra sleep, right?!? I have learned to get ready more quickly to make up for the "snoozing".

Life is pretty good right now. I don't seem to be quite as obsessed with the whole eating thing right now. Not that I am making the best choices, but at least that freakish, obsessed feeling is gone for now. That is a good thing, it makes it feel as if it is something that I can be in control of. Now just if I could quit lying to myself and actually GET UP in the morning and exercise like I tell myself I am going to do every night before going to bed.

Tomorrow I have a fun thing. I bowl on a Unified Team for Special Olympics, and we qualified for state. It is tomorrow. I have been bowling with the Special Olympics for over 10 years. It is such a great thing for me. I really love the opportunity and blessing that it is in my life. These "kids" are so great and loving and just great to be around. Their motto is: "If I can't win, then let me brave in the attempt." Isn't that sweet? I'll just tell you, I wanna WIN, so I can add another medal to my collection. How lame is that?!? : )

Oops! I guess it is just me!

One other thing that I wanted to say is, my goals for this week are: taking my multi-vitamin and calcium everyday and drinking 8, 8 oz. glasses of water everyday! So far, so good. : )

What are your goals?

One week later...
ok, now I am really bugged! I just typed a big long rant about weighing last night and for some reason it didn't actually post it! Now I have to try and remember all of the witty things that I typed the first time around. Anyways, I weighed last night, and I have gained! It just stands to reason that is someone is losing, someone else is finding! I just can't seem to get what my head thinks it wants in synch with what my mouth thinks it wants and what my little stomach will actually hold! I am still going strong on the no ice cream thing, but I am not sure that this deprivation thing is working for me, because it seems like I just find something else to eat instead. At least with ice cream I was getting a little calcium and protein! : )

I am a little bit bummed out, I finally stopped at mom & dad’s last night, and decided to weigh myself. I usually weigh in the morning, but since we weighed at night at the initial weigh-in, I decided I should check it out. Crap, according to the scale, I have gained 3 FREAKING pounds! Whatever! I can’t seem to get a grip on what my head thinks my mouth needs, and although my stomach doesn’t hold very much, there are still some things that I can eat quite easily that are not very healthy choices. However, that said, I am one week out on the “no ice cream” and going strong. I am not sure if the total deprivation thing is good for me or not though, because I seem to have found other things to replace the ice cream. At least with ice cream I was getting a little calcium and protein. : )

I guess it is time for true confessions. I had a chocolate almond concrete from Neilsens last night! BUT, my buy- one-get-one-at-1/2-price card expired yesterday, so I just HAD to use it one more time! BUT, today is the beginning of Lent, and I am giving up ice cream. 40 days ice cream free! No exercise yesterday either. Today is another day!